Listen to your spiritual condition

"After every meditation, sit silently for some minutes; brood over your condition", he [Babuji] said. That means, put your mind into your condition and see what it says to you. Most of you have heard Babuji saying, "The condition speaks to me." When I have a headache, it speaks to me; I don't look for it. Isn't it? When I have indigestion, it speaks to me. Why on earth will my spiritual condition not speak to me?

Taken from the book "HeartSpeak 2009 (1st edn., 2010)", Chapter "Go Deep Into Yourself", pg. 212, by Revered Chariji

How very true. If only we tried listening to our inner self more often. Personally, I am guilty of not doing that. And I know the reason why - because I am scared. Scared to look at the truth. Scared to accept the areas where I need to improve. Scared to look at my own ugly self. 

But if this is a conversation, obviously, the inner self should also talk to me about things that I am doing good. Things that I have progressed on. Blame it on human nature, I have not been able to just loosen the strings and let things go. 

Some day. Some time.. I will.